Sunday, September 05, 2004

Suddenly I don’t feel like blogging anymore.
Bugger Life.

I did so badly. So, so, so, SO badly. And now all I have to worry about is my CA grade sheet in my file and the damned ‘so-called holiday’ extra lessons. I wanna cry. I know I nearly did. But there’s no point doing so. Eva told me so. And I’m glad I took her advice.
Else I would have been… I don’t know what I would have been. What I would have done.

Anyway, XL calculated my L1R5 from my grades.
I got 21.
There was an error at first and she got 19 and Adeline just stared at me like that. Then she took the CA grade sheet and calculated again, getting the 21.
Should I still have that aspiration…? To go to RJC? Can I make it? So what, even if I did, can I stay there? Manage good grades?
Anyone with GEP Brains who DARES to interrupt me at this point will die within the hour. I’ll get Myst-jie to send all of you unlabelled tapes about this psychic woman combing her hair with this mad grin on her face.

To slog just to get the grades that you guys get without lifting a finger. To see all of you get better grades than me when you really try hard to study. To see me being ridiculed left out alone, for being that smart-alek kid who thinks she can get into RJC and stay there.
Oh, how I laugh.




I’m scared, damn it, scared!








I don’t even know why I’m online at this time.
Now to leave before my dad pokes at me for being sentimental or before I delete this entire thing when I change my mind.

Posted by norbert at 9/05/2004 10:50:00 PM